For the past 10 years or so during my time in the saddle I've been somewhat attached to the bicycle. But now, after some modifications I'm as attached to the bike as Ben Hur is to the galley of his sinking ship. So if this ship is asinkin, so am I, not Ben Hur. Being clipped into the pedals is a new experience I have to get used to. Several times I forgot this fact while riding. Here's a scene typical of our ride the other day. I'm riding along like a pro all suave-like when Lily and her lady friend decide to suddenly stop just off the track to drink water. I think, "okay, I can take five, after all even the best of the best needs to rest."
I start to slow down, I come to a complete stop, lean over to put my foot down....not working....I'm still leaning but nothing's holding me up....wha!??....MY FOOT IS STILL CLIPPED IN! I then topple right over and crash onto the ground scraping the skin off my lower right leg while my face does a sort of scoop action drag through the dirt and finally settles a few inches from impact. It takes a few seconds to register the pain, then the fact that I just fell flat from a complete stop, then the humiliation of falling in front of girls so I lay there seeking sympathy.
This happens twice that day.
I hear the lady friend say the second time, "I think your husband just fell again." She then asks me inquisitively after I get up and brush off, "Why do you keep falling? Aren't you supposed to be some sort pro at this?"
But I am! I say. I'm just not used to being clipped in!
Actually I'm not a pro in the least bit. I couldn't keep up on a training day peloton if I tried, which I did try sometime ago that's a story waiting in the queue.
The ride goes on and we all finally make it to our start and quietly pack and plan to return this weekend.
In other news: this post has been in draft for three days now so alot has happened since Monday morning. I've sworn to myself that if I survive summer of 2009 and manage to hold on to my job I will stand up at the next town hall meeting and ask for a moment of recognition be given to all the talented young people/friends we've/I've lost while working here. Every week another dear friends' desk is left empty because of being laid off, or technically speaking-reduction in workforce. It's getting to be very depressing. Everything is getting to be very depressing. I had to stop reading The Stand because the reality of it all was just too much for me to handle right now. I actually couldn't sleep some nights after having spent a few hours reading through chapters of surreal horror, the scenes permeated through my mind and saturated my dreams with friends and family around me disappearing leaving me alone in a deserted city.
I have to stop writing blogs mid paragraph about happenings all around the world that effect me to the point of building an opinion and attempting to voice it out loud because if I start writing about crimes & injustice, when and where does it stop? Do I really want this haven in pezrealian to be a reflection of all that's wrong in this world? I don't and I won't let it. But I do see the irony of posting this weekend's party highlights and yet across the earth in China a family loses a breadwinning son amist riots and ethnic hatred so I think, "why bother?" Why try? How can I live a life in denial of what's coming? Is it coming? Don't know. For now though it's just one day at a time.







